Having three kids!

Here is my soap box:

I keep telling people who ask, 'so how many kids are you going to have?' or 'Is this going to be the last?' anything like that. So I tell them I think this will be the last, or I think three, but we will see what happens. Then they always say... 'You are ONLY going to have three?' um only? ONLY? When it comes to M&Ms three is only, when it comes to kids three is not only. Enough people have said stuff that it makes me feel like they think I am less of a mother then someone who can wants to or who has four or five. Maybe I am just smarter, I know when I reach my limit and weather or not I am baby hungry I can make the best choice for my kids, my marriage and me. Maybe everyone is just different, some are moms of two, some five, and some are step moms, some are neighborhood moms, we all are different. I don't think I could be a step mom, but people do it, I also don't think I could handle (well) more then three kids. If you can then good for you, but that doesn't have anything to do with me. Also I am not guarantying that I am not going to have more then three, I am just saying that is what I am planning on, maybe there are more up there for me and I will know that later, maybe not, but if you are going to ask me how many kids I am planning to have I am going to say three, and I would appreciate it if you did not respond with ONLY three.

Okay there I am off my soap box, thank you all for listening. :-)

Feeling unequal to the task of parenting.

Some days are just harder then others, today was one. Daniel woke up in a bad mood and it never really went away. They are both asleep now, they look peaceful and calm. I know in order to teach them, and make things easier for them and me later in life, I have to stand up to those tantrums, but it doesn't make it any easier. I love my kids, and I know they love me. I also know I am doing the best I can for them, and in the end that is all I can do.