Feeling better!

Yay! We are slowly getting better! One little step at a time! I am so excited. I am still a little sick, just a little cough, but finally able to do things, Daniel is also feeling better, still with a littel cough, but better then yesterday!

Being sick sucks!

Can we just get over it already? If I knew it were nothing to worry about, I would just go on being sick and not mind, we are feeling better but still coughing. Will it go away. Even if we are not contagious no one wants to be by you when you are hacking up a lung. Plus I don't even really know if we are or not, if we are fine, but I would like to know. I just hope we stop coughing soon, Halloween is this weekend. Tomorrow I have a Scout Conference to go to, Daniel's school is having their dress up day, then Thursday is the Trunk or treat at my ward, Friday we have a family party for the kids, and Saturday we have two Halloween parties, one during the day for the kids and one at night for us, after taking my kids to trick or treat for a few houses. none of this stuff is stuff I can just do another weekend, buggy, like I said in my previous post I hate missing things. We need to get better, now!

Warning: very negitive post, do not read if you are in a good mood.

I am not a home body, or maybe I used to be, who knows. Here I sit sick, blah, my kids are starting to feel better, it seems, now I feel like I got hit by a truck. Tomorrow I am speaking in sacrament..... I have a meeting in the morning at 7:30. How can I run a primary when I can't run my house. I washed Daniel's bedding, well, Christopher did, Elena's is next, I started lysoling the toys and house, but didn't get far, I want to do things. I am not someone who can sit around and do nothing, I am a busy body, I am feeling so negitive, and I don't like it. I don't like dropping the ball, if I say I am going to do something and then don't, I not no one likes it, but it really bugs me. Also I like to go to everything I get invited to, it sounds stupid, but I always want to go, I feel like I will miss something if I don't go. But then when I do I let my kids and family down, I get over booked and have to let peple down and back out of stuff, and it bugs. Anyway, this post is a downer but that is how I feel right now, the good news is, tonight after I put my kids to bed, I am going to relax with a friend and get some good conversating in, maybe watch a girl movie, and basically do nothing, but not by myself, gotta love friends.

I'm offically, even though I am not offically, a Fallick.

Here is why, right now I am making dough dabs for the first time with home made beef stew, sadly to say, also for the first time. I haven't tasted either yet, they are still cooking, although the stew looks like the brooth should be thicker and there should be more of it, but we will see. I will let you all know how they turn out. And I do ahve a ton, so if you aren't scared of my sick kids, you should come over and have some. :-)

getting stuff done.

It is amazing how some day I try to get soo much done, and even if i do get stuff done, I don't feel like I have gotten much done, but then other days I don't plan to do much and I get a ton done and it is easy. The best are days when you plan to get sutff done and you do and it is easy. but today was a day I didn't plan to get much done, but I did. I cleaned up and organized my down-down stairs and it looks way better. Still have a little more to do, but wow, I have been putting this forever and it didn't take too long. So yay!

Stop and smell the roses....

or your little one as you put them to bed. I was hurrying to get the kids baths, pj's and into bed. Elena is sick and has been acting like, well, a bum, anyway I put her in bed and give her a hug and a kiss, she then reaches out her arm and pulls my head down to rest on her. I lay there and she strokes my head, while either talking or singing something. I say okay good night and lift my head, she pushes it back down, again with the stroking. I don't know if you have ever had a two year old stroke your head, but it was beyond description. I don't have the words to say how it made me feel. I love her and I am soooo grateful for this little moment we got to share, for this little reminder to slow down and enjoy the journey. I can't describe to you the love I felt for her and for my Heavenly Father, and FROM my Heavenly Father. I am blessed to have both my kids in my life and I love them. And this was one of those moments I will hold on to forever. :-)

mean what you say and say what you mean.

Both are hard for me when it comes to my kids. I often get angry and say things without thinking then right after I have said them I realize I didn't mean it. Not rude things, things like, Daniel if you don't _____ then you can't _______. Which is fine if he does what he is supposed to, but I shouldn't say it if I don't mean it. So sometimes I don't mean what I say and often times I don't say what I mean. Am I making sense to anyone but myself? No one knows. Anyway, I am working on pausing for a moment and thinking about what I want to say with Daniel. I can always follow through on what I say, because I know the importance of that, but it is saying what I want where I have a problem. So that is going to be something I am working on. Let's see how it goes.