somethings gotta give....

I just blah, can't get things done, can't catch up, can't do it all. Something has to give..... the question is what? I feel like everything I do is either something I need to do or something I just want to do, but helps me not get overwhelmed and go crazy. Humm...... there has to be a better way for me to run my life, the way I am doing it now isn't working. If one little thing doesn't go as planned it throws everything else in my life off, and lets face it things don't go as planned all the time. What to do? What to do? I will have to ponder that as I finish vacuuming and feed the kids dinner, and think about how I am even going to be able to do everything I need to this week for Primary and my kids b-day, way too much to do and way too little time.

I have stuff I should be doing right now, but either I can't do them, or I am not remembering them. humm.... maybe I should be content with relaxing. I think I like doing stuff so much I just do all the time until it gets to be too much, maybe I should take little breaks when I can. Like right now while my kids are sleeping. of course now that I write that they are going to wake up, but oh well. I had something I was going to post about, but I can't seem to focus. I think the thing is I create things that I need/want to do, and then I don't get the other stuff done that I should be doing. Humm, I think I need to figure this out more. I am going to try to take nap.

H1N1- Swine Flu

The lady on the T.V, she works at the U of U health center. She says the students need to go to the doctor because they most likely have swine flu if they have any of these symptoms: sore throat, fever of more then 100, and/or coughing. Okay according to her I had the swine flu already this season, and so did Daniel. Whatever, they gave out 6000 tickets for the shot in 2 hours. What's wrong with people? Okay I am off my soap box now. Love to hear what you people think......

Simle is best!

I need to learn to simplify my life. I always do more then is needed. Which would be fine, but not when it takes more time and energy from me, which I don't have. So starting with my kids birthday I am going to simplify, no I am not changing the time or the date, no worries. It is still going to be really cool, but as I plan and get stuff I need to think what if it is really going to make it any funner for my kids. For example, I have trying to get little stuffed animals for them to rescue and then take home. Would it be any less fun to have them rescue a baby monkey and just use a pinata, I know they have one at Zurchers, and then they get to break it open and take the candy home. plus I would save money by not buying 25 little animals, since I was already going to buy a pinata. Perfect. So now I am off to plan the rest of the party, while thinking "simple, simple, simple," over and over again in my head. Wish me luck!

exercise

I love it! I know call me crazy, but I do. I enjoy Zumba and that is well, basically because I am just dancing having a good time. But I also like running, it makes me feel good. I feel accomplished after a good run, powerful, strong. And today I went to the Zumba class at the gym and stayed after for weights. WOW! My arms hurt while I am typing this. She does heavy weights, lots of reps. I only used 8 pounds on each side and we only did 30 minutes. She worked my legs, arms, abs, butt, pretty much my whole body. It was awesome. And I realized I like that too, so it is safe to say I like working out in general. The thing is I don't watch what eat at all. And I don't mind if I don't lose any weight, I would like to lose 5 pounds, be back to my
pre-baby weight, but if I don't, then I don't. The thing I do want is to tone my body. So the question is can I do that without going all out and not eating sugars, and counting my calories? Anyone?

Fear

Fear is a stupid emotion. Fear leads to irrational behavior. For example I see I Spider running across the table, what do I do, jump up and freak out, even if it is little. Is that rational? No, what are the chances of it killing me, not huge, what are the chances of it even biting me, also not huge, it is scared of me too, and should be because I am huge, compared to it, and am going to squish it. So why do I jump up and freak out? Fear also leads us to do other irrational things, what do you do if you are scared of hurting someones feelings? Or scared to let them down? I very much dislike fear. What is the opposite of fear? Jaded people would say it is innocence. Like someone who knows the reality of having a tragedy happen in their life. They no longer think it wont happen to them. And they usually think that if you aren't afraid of it happening to you, well, that is because you are too innocent. But we really can't walk around being afraid of everything, but not protecting ourselves at all is also stupid. So where do we stand? How are we to know the truth? Where is the line between protecting yourself and living in a bubble. We can't be experts in everything. My only conclusion is that we do need to educate ourselves as best we can, spend more time on learning and less time wasted on other less important activities. And that as we do that we need to pray. we need to worship our Father in Heaven daily, in order to have his spirit. We need to be in tune to it, in order to hear and understand it. With the most education we can have and with the power of the Holy Ghost we will be able to make good choices for ourselves and our family.

Weekends

I love when after the weekend is over I feel relaxed and ready for the week ahead. This was not one of those, but the extra hour helped, it felt later then it was tonight at about 7 so I realized I had a bit of time on my hands and got some stuff done. Now I need to work on not over scheduling myself or my family during these next few months which will be crazy for me. So just know if you are having some type of get together we might not come. If I over do it then I just end up canceling on people and/or doing more then I can handle and dropping the ball, or lots of them, and/or going to too many things and not considering the effects on me and my kids. We need some down time, and that is what is hard for us, or should I say me. Anyway this weekend was nice, but I am glad it is over. I have my work cut out for me. I always like to do big things for my kids b-day and it is coming up. So here I go off to plan their party, wish me luck and all of that.