Things are NEVER what they seem.

Sometimes it is better to just say nothing at all.

I am not very good at that. Once we have said something we can't take it back. So sometimes I should just not say anything but I always have to have somoething to say. So for now I am working on saying les, only what needs to be said.

It's the climb......

Sometimes it is hard to remember that life is all about the journey. We we are thinking we have soo much to do or things are so hard we should try to remember that is the point. The view from the top of the mountain is beautiful, I am sure, but much more so to the person who had to work to get there and gets to stand on the top of that mountain and take it all in, then to the person who only gets to see the picture that other person took. The same is true with life. Sometimes we spend so much time thinking about the end result of things we forget that we can't get that end result unless we do the work now. I could use so many examples, but the biggest one for me is looking ahead to when my kids are grown and able to do wonderful things and make choices and live life and I get to watch. I often think of how nice it will be when I don't have to do EVERYTHING for them. But if I don't take the time to raise them now, it wont be nice when they are older. They will still grow, but I wont have taught them the things I wanted to. There are a lot of phrases that go with this..... stop and smell the roses, life is a journey, and lots more, but I like the words to the song It's the climb. "It ain't about how fast I get there, it ain't about what's waiting on the other side, it's the climb."

Change

I like change, I think. Well, when it is good change I do. Some people don't like change no matter what kind of change it is, I am not one of those people. Everyone changes over time, but have you ever noticed it while it was happening. I can see myself changing. I started to notice after we got back from Peru. I am sure some of it has to do with my trip, I think most of it does. I met people who are very different from myself and the people I am most often in contact with. I guess my eyes were opened to the idea that there are other ways to live the how I do it. The amazing part is without noticing I was doing it, I took the characteristics I liked that I saw in the people there and used them to change the way I act. I can see that I have changed and am changing and I like it. From what I can see so far it is good change. It was just cool to see that I did it without realizing what I was doing.

Motherhood

What is it called when you love someone so much you can't stand it and they make you frustrated almost to the point of losing control all in one day?

What other people think.

Here is what I am working on right now, not caring what other people think. In my head I am one of those people who doesn't care, and I used to be one of those people, but I am starting to see that I am not anymore. Slowly over the years I have changed, everyone does, some have been good changes and some, not so good. But I lay in bed the other day and realized I a not the person I think I am. I used to be the person I think I am, and I still want to be that person. It is like over the years I slowly stopped being that person, but kept thinking I was, until all at once I realized I wasn't anymore, I didn't notice the change happening. I am not going to go around acting like a jerk and saying, well I don't care what you think. But I do need to make sure I don't base my thoughts and actions only on what others think. I need to care more about what I think then what others think. And more about what God thinks. I always, every time I speak, am thinking is this going to offend them, are they going to think..... whatever of me. But by doing that I am not really being myself. The only thing I got out the the yoga class I did the other day was this: right at the end of the class, we are breathing and relaxing, and the teacher says, take a minute to honor yourself. Those two words have stuck with me, honor yourself.