I'm offically, even though I am not offically, a Fallick.

Here is why, right now I am making dough dabs for the first time with home made beef stew, sadly to say, also for the first time. I haven't tasted either yet, they are still cooking, although the stew looks like the brooth should be thicker and there should be more of it, but we will see. I will let you all know how they turn out. And I do ahve a ton, so if you aren't scared of my sick kids, you should come over and have some. :-)

getting stuff done.

It is amazing how some day I try to get soo much done, and even if i do get stuff done, I don't feel like I have gotten much done, but then other days I don't plan to do much and I get a ton done and it is easy. The best are days when you plan to get sutff done and you do and it is easy. but today was a day I didn't plan to get much done, but I did. I cleaned up and organized my down-down stairs and it looks way better. Still have a little more to do, but wow, I have been putting this forever and it didn't take too long. So yay!

Stop and smell the roses....

or your little one as you put them to bed. I was hurrying to get the kids baths, pj's and into bed. Elena is sick and has been acting like, well, a bum, anyway I put her in bed and give her a hug and a kiss, she then reaches out her arm and pulls my head down to rest on her. I lay there and she strokes my head, while either talking or singing something. I say okay good night and lift my head, she pushes it back down, again with the stroking. I don't know if you have ever had a two year old stroke your head, but it was beyond description. I don't have the words to say how it made me feel. I love her and I am soooo grateful for this little moment we got to share, for this little reminder to slow down and enjoy the journey. I can't describe to you the love I felt for her and for my Heavenly Father, and FROM my Heavenly Father. I am blessed to have both my kids in my life and I love them. And this was one of those moments I will hold on to forever. :-)

mean what you say and say what you mean.

Both are hard for me when it comes to my kids. I often get angry and say things without thinking then right after I have said them I realize I didn't mean it. Not rude things, things like, Daniel if you don't _____ then you can't _______. Which is fine if he does what he is supposed to, but I shouldn't say it if I don't mean it. So sometimes I don't mean what I say and often times I don't say what I mean. Am I making sense to anyone but myself? No one knows. Anyway, I am working on pausing for a moment and thinking about what I want to say with Daniel. I can always follow through on what I say, because I know the importance of that, but it is saying what I want where I have a problem. So that is going to be something I am working on. Let's see how it goes.

Your actions effect others mmore then you know.

Today I don't have much time, but wanted to write about how our actions effect others. They really do more then we know, both for good and for bad. And if we pass on good feelings to others, they pass those on with whoever they come in contact with. So I guess the moral of the story is that I am trying to control my emotions. What I want to say isn't really coming out right, but anyway, right now I am trying to think before I act or talk about how what I am going to do or say will effect others. Mostly what I say, sometimes I say things without even thinking and don't even really mean them, they just come out and sound negative. So that is what I am working on now. That and getting my house in order, I like things clean and in order I think better when they are that way. And for the most part my house is, but when I go down-down stairs where my storage is, it gives me anxiety. So I am off to work on that area. Here I go.....

Responsibility

I have been thinking about this a lot lately, my own and others, and how we handle all the different responsibilities we have. It is wise to not take on more then you can handle, and helpful to those who are working with you because if you do take on more then you can handle, inevitably you wont be able to do it all, and those who work with you will have to pick up the slack. If you only take what you can handle, others will have to do the rest, but they will know what things need to be taken care of, instead of thinking you have it under control and finding out last minute it needs to be done. Also I think sometimes we take on more then we can thinking to prove something, but it hurts others when we do this, because ultimately we drop the ball. Some people look at others and say wow, look at all she can do and I can barely do.... (whatever). But I don't envy those who can do it all, well no one can, so I should say those who try to do it all. They are neglecting something, or someone, in their life. I know it is hard to balance life, I struggle with this all the time, but the biggest thing is not taking on too much to balance. A juggler who knows how to juggle 3 balls should not tell others he can do 5. If he does he might make it for a few minutes with five, but then the balls all come crashing down. The true character of a person is in what they do when all the "balls" in their life come crashing down. Do they turn to others for help picking them all back up slowly, do they grab them all up at once and start juggling five again, do they give up all together and walk away from all the balls, do they get depressed and do nothing until something or someone reaches out to them and puts one of the balls in their hands. Which type am I? Honestly, I am working on being the one who starts to pick them up again slowly with the help of others, however, I it is in my personality to want to do it all all the time, so I often am the person who picks them all back up and starts to throw again. Which type are you? Just think about it, you don't need to post it. This is getting long so those are my thoughts for today, unedited.

Start each day as if it were on purpose....

That is what I did today, I got my to-do list done the night before for the next day. Then I woke up early, for me 7:15, had a shower and was dressed and ready to go before my kids got up, at about 8 or so. It made such a difference in my day. I am slowly becoming a morning person. I want to be one. In fact when I am wake in the morning I love it, I am not grumpy, I feel good. But the problem is I can't fall asleep at night. I get in bed early, 9:30 or so, but lay awake for a while. I have tried different things. Currently I take melatonin, it helps me fall asleep, but seems like it makes it harder for me to wake up the next morning, though I am not sure yet if it is that or just the season. Any who, I am going to try something else my sister suggested, can't remember the name right now. I really wish I could fall asleep in 5 or 10 minutes like Christopher can. While I am still figuring out the going to sleep, I know the waking up early is good and I am going to try to keep it up for 30 days, that is how long it takes to make a habit. I am also working on a morning routine.