Thursday, December 30, 2010

THE phrase

Okay people, I need your help, here it is...... I want to put a phrase up in my living room or bedroom or maybe both. But I don't know what phrase to put. If you know me well put one you think fits me, or my stage of life right now, or just put one you like. Here is an example, one of my wonderful sisters, I have many, is a talented photographer, she is really the bees knees, but anyway, on her wall in the living room she has the phrase, shoot now I can't remember it exactly, something like Life is like a picture, you develop what you focus on. Or something, but anyway, it fits her perfect and all around it she has pictures of her family and stuff, very cute. (Ames if you are reading this, what does the phrase say again?) Anyway, so post a comment with your phrase or phrases on it. Thanks

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


What is a good phrase that basically says it is all about perspective? I know they say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, but really everything is in the eyes of the beholder isn't it? I am just saying, how we look at things makes a big difference. And how we look at others and ourselves as well. Something to think about is all.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Confidence is sexy

How about this phrase? Do you think confidence is an attractive attribute? If you were being honest would you say you are a confident person? I used to be, and would like to be again. I am a person who likes to listen to others and help them talk out their problems, over the years I think that has gotten to me. Hearing all of their insecurities I think has made me over think things and doubt myself. Also I am married to a very confident person. In fact most Peruvians I have met have this confidence. What they say is fact, no doubts. Sometimes it can be annoying, but it is something that is good to have, helpful in life. When you have confidence in yourselves it is easier for others to have confidence in you also. So for now I am slowly, because I know it really is a process, and something that is mind over matter, working on increasing my level of confidence. It happens over small changes, one little decision at a time. So what ate your thoughts on Confidence? Let's hear them....

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Here is one for ya....

Fake it 'till you make it.

What do you think of this one? Does it sound positive or negative to you? Does it feel like this is what you are doing now? what are your thoughts......

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Okay so it has been and while.......

But I guess that is what happens when you have three kids, everything that isn't those three kids, sometimes just has to wait. But today I was thinking of something. Can't quite get the phrase, but basically there is a difference between letting yourself go and letting go. I am trying to let go. Let go of the things I can't control, let go of the lesser things. I say lesser because I can't say unimportant, sometimes the things you have to let go are important just less important then other things. Other times they aren't really important at all, but I like to overdue things and control things, so I have to work on letting go of the not important things also. I just have to take a deep breath and say in my mind, life will go on, and it always does. (This is a good thing for me to work on during this time of year, where it is easy to over due and get lost in the less important and un-important things.) So there you go....... let's hear what you got.

Monday, November 1, 2010


For the month of Nov. I am going to focus on all the things I am grateful for. I have a lot to be grateful for but today I am very grateful for my family. Both my little fam and my extended family. My family is great! I love them. I am grateful for my three (yeah, still sounds weird) little ones, even on days when the two big ones drive me crazy and nights when the little one wakes me up right when I fall asleep to nurse, I still love them beyond measure. Also my hubby, I am very grateful for him. He works super hard so I can stay home and we can have the things we need. He has been great at picking up the slack these last few weeks since the baby has come. Also I am grateful for my sisters, they are awesome and they are always there when I need them, even sometimes when I don't ask for help. Also grateful for my parents, their methods my have been different, but they taught me valuable lessons and help shaped who I am. All in all I am surrounded by great people!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Heard this phrase today

Decide to enjoy more and endure less.

That is what I need to be doing now. I am enduring, but I should be enjoying! I know it is hard sometimes with little kids, but they are only little so long and I am sure at one point or another in my life I will look back and miss this stage. So here is to enjoying life, whatever stage you are in, there are good things happening so take them all in and enjoy them before they are gone.

Monday, October 18, 2010


I really need a single sister, why did we all have to get married and have kids? It would just be nice right about now. She could come over and I could let my kids play in the back and she could help me get all the stuff done that drives me crazy, that doesn't bug my very helpful husband. Or she could just come take my kids somewhere. It is getting hard to get everything done and I am not the type that is okay leaving things undone. Plus today and yesterday being sick I did nothing and felt bad for doing nothing but couldn't at the same time. oh well, hopefully I feel much better tomorrow and can make some progress.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

My Song for the Baby

So I was listening to this song, I like it anyway, but then I was thinking about the baby and it just fits in so many ways and it cracks me up. I changed some of the words but click here if you want to hear/see what it really says.

Here is what I changed:

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts- (I am glad pregnancy doesn't last)
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out- (Tell my self he is coming soon, then that it will be awhile)
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it- (On a daily bases :)
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out -( My lyrics- and I know someday that you will come out)
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out ("You'll make me work, so we can work to get you out!)
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get- (this may seem true at times with how much you give to a little one, but I know it really isn't in the long run :)
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up- (well, I do have to wait, and I really can't give up :)
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck- ( This line is VERY true)
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life- (maybe not out of nowhere, but timing wise)

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me- (this line also VERY true)
And now I can see every possibility

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me- (also VERY true)
And now I can see every single possibility

Anyway I thought it was cute and I really like the song.

Monday, September 27, 2010


People are so nice to me right now. I am wondering if they are this nice to all pregos or if it just me. Seems like everyone around me right now is so willing to help me out, lift me up, put up with my negativeness and short comings and generally take care of me. It is an amazing blessing in my life right now. I am grateful to all the amazing people in my life! (all of you)

Friday, September 24, 2010

A very Good day!

Now for some not complaining. Barbara watched my kids today and I got stuff done. The baby's room is ready for him. I need to get out the little clothes and see what I still need but his crib is set up and in place I am done painting and there are not more tools in his room. It looks really good. I also got the laundry done, all of it, and then went to the temple with my hubby. Tomorrow is my pamper myself day, which I have been looking forward to for a while, but thought I wasn't going to be able to enjoy because of all the stuff I had to do that wasn't done. But after today I feel much better, still always more to do, but I got some big things done which helps. So tomorrow I am going to get a facial, wax my eye brows, get my hair done, and then get a pedicure with glitter toes, never done that before. Then to top it all off go eat with some of my sisters and go to womens conference. All in all it is going to be a good weekend. I am feeling pretty good right now.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

More complaing

I know you are all sick of hearing me complain right now, but well...... this is my blog so if you are too sick of it then stop reading now.

I am just so irritated with myself right now. I can't seem to do anything right. I forget everything and mess up everything I am doing. It is very annoying because then everything that already takes me a long time because my body is slow and tired takes me even longer because I have to re-do it, or fix the part I messed up. I should not be blogging right now given the mood I am in. Tomorrow Barbara is going to watch my kids for a bit and lets hope I can get a lot done then. Slow and steady wins the race, right?

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


You can call it nesting or whatever you want, but something crazy is happening here. I feel this unquenchable desire to get things done. You would think this was a good thing, helping me get things done, but no. I normally have this desire but now it is over board. I can't get all the things I want to do done, time wise and energy wise. It isn't possible so then it just leaves me annoyed, and stressed that thing are not getting done. I could really use a team of people, maybe 12 or so to come over and help me all day one day. I think if I didn't have my kids that day everything would get done, or at least the big/important things. Humm........ what are the chances of that happening? Not big. So what to do about it. If I only had a brain, I could plan out all the next few days, prioritize and get the big things done. Well, I am off to make a way too big to-do list and then see how many of those things my husband can do for me. I can do this, I have to, most of the things on the list really have to be done... so here goes......

Saturday, September 18, 2010

When it rains it pours......... blessings!

Seems like everything keeps going wrong and getting messed up but at the same time I am being soo blessed and everything keeps working out. I don't know if that makes sense but it is happening. Like my garage door broke.... but then Christopher had a really good month and we were able to pay for it without it being a big deal at all. Also the car had been having problems, not starting, but someone has always helped me so I have been able to get it home, and it got fixed without costing a lot. I keep forgetting things but it always turns out okay. I am really blessed and I am so grateful for all the people helping me and all the amazing blessings I am receiving right now.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

random thoughts

I don't like being flaky. I am not a flaky person but right now I am. I am in between two types of people, the ones who say they are going to do things but then end up not doing them for one reason or another and the ones who get by doing the least amount possible. I am not either of these types normally but right now I am and it is making me mad. I feel like right now I am not living up to what I should be in any area of my life. It makes me mad at myself and at the same time makes me feel bad about myself. And any one can say, oh well, your pregnant Halley so it's okay. but no it's not. I feel like I need to clean out the un-important things in my life, but they are all important. I always feel behind. I really need to learn to use those around me, my husband, and others, let them help me/ ask for their help. I also need to use my time wisely. I guess I will work on that.

Thursday, September 9, 2010


Feeling tired, a little disappointed, but still have hope for tomorrow. We are doing a three day sale, today was the first day, but it didn't go well. There is a great market for our jewelry and in the right place it sells itself, we are just having a hard time finding that place. I know that when you start a business it takes a lot of learning to get things right, and really we are doing well for how long we have been doing it, but I still can't help but be disappointed when things don't turn out the way I had hoped. I love making the jewelry, I love wearing it, I love working on the business side of it ( I get excited when I do it), but I am not super good at sales. There I said it, I am not a sales person. But I know with time I will get it figured out.

Something to look forward to: In a few weeks, 1 and 1/2, Eva is going to Peru! She is going to get us a ton of new beads, sterling silver and gold, and everything with our awesome logo printed on it! I am excited to see it all and start making new pieces. We are going to start holding a monthly girls night in at my house and let everyone see our stuff. The first one will be after she gets back and we will have all out new beads and stuff. I am very excited about that! We are also going to be doing more parties at people's houses, so if you are reading this and want some free jewelry, let me know. :-) That is it for today.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Daniel's school

So I just had to post since it was so cute. On Tuesday when we dropped Daniel off at school I am not sure Elena knew what was going to happen. We got back in the car without him and she starts asking me, "where's my Daniel." So cute, she was worried she told me to wait for HER Daniel. He went to school last year but she must not remember how it goes. So then yesterday we go to drop him off and it begins, she wants to stay and play and cries because I make her leave. So I guess we will see how long it takes her to understand that every day we are going to do the same thing, take him in and then leave and come back later. I am going to try and do a few things with just her so she has something to look forward to when he is at school, but it is also my get things done time so we will see. Today we are going to go shopping, just her and me and get her some clothes, she loves shopping so that should be good. :-)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Pregnant Rant

Okay people, I can't post this on FB so it is going here :-)

In case you were wondering no one pregnant or not likes to be told you look horrible, you look like you feel horrible, you look so uncomfortable, or you look like you are going to pop!

There is never a good reaction to any of these. If you say I look like I feel horrible, either I do feel horrible and you are rubbing it in and reminding me that not only do I feel horrible but I look it too, or I don't feel horrible and you just told me I look like I do. Either way, not good.

On the other hand everyone, pregnant or not, likes to be told they look good, and other nice things. Seems like I either get everyone telling me one way for a bit then the other way for a bit. For now I have been getting the not so good way. Next time I might just say...... Thanks, so do you! :-)

Sunday, August 22, 2010


It is so crazy! Seems like the days are flying by, nights and weekends even more so. I have nine weeks left of my pregnancy and they are full of stuff. I haven't painted the babies room yet, and really need to since my legs and the rest of my body think I am 70 years old. Call it nesting or call it me knowing I wont get anything done after the baby comes but I will still have lots to do, so I am doing it all now. I have tons I want to get done, but my body just can't keep up, I am not a fan. I can't wait for the baby to come though! He is almost here.

Monday, August 9, 2010


Lately he has been surprising me a lot by everything he knows. In lots of areas I can see that I need to work with him more, but he just keeps saying things that I haven't taught him. I guess he is starting to get to that age where everything he learned isn't from me. Soon school will start and I know it will become more when it does. He also has been saying cute things lately. Like blessing the sacrament (the agua and the pan) during his night time prayer, randomly saying he thinks we should name the baby Andrew (first time he has given a suggestion that is not one of his cousins names, or his middle name) and then today at costco he told the bagger, "I know Jesus went back up to Heaven!" He got that from his talk that he so proudly gave in primary yesterday. I had him help me write the talk by showing him pictures of things he was going to talk about and him telling me what he was going to say. He started out by showing a picture of Jesus and he was going to say, "today I want to talk about Jesus." Instead he said "today I want to talk TO Jesus." Oh well, he did and was very excited to give it. Also he improvised when he bore his testimony at the end and he did really well. Also, on another note, last fast sunday he bore his testimony and he said "I know Pres. Monson is real." It was cute. Anyway, that's it for now.

Saturday, July 31, 2010


So over the past few days I sold my jewelry at a boutique. It was fun. Nice to see that people like what I make enough to spend money on it, people who aren't my family :-) also nice to be without my kids for a bit. I admit I loved it. Moms came in with their kids, and they were frustrated because they were touching or making a mess with the food. And I thought it was nice to not have to worry about that for bit. After three long days I did miss them. I do love being with them, but a break was nice too.

Also I am so excited! One because I love making jewelry and two because I love the idea that I might be able to have a business that makes me money. I get all giddy when I am working out the details of my little business. I would love, and am working towards, making this something I could do for a living after my kids are all in school. Something I could earn an income with. It is just in the beginning stages now, but just the thought gets me going. I am tired, but I am happy.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Another warning!

Okay people, I said it once I will say it again, I am a crazy person right now. I am prego and having feelings to go with it. I am very easily irritated, I am feeling like a needy person. I feel overwhelmed, but then on top of everything super fast. I feel very unattractive, and just blah..... but all of my emotions change so fast. I don't feel like myself and I don't like it. And that is that.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010


I keep saying that I don't have very many friends.......... but lately I have realized I do have friends, just not too many that I go out and do things with. I would like to change that. I like spending time with my family and doing things at home, but the few times I do spend time with other women without kids I really enjoy myself. Tonight I just hung out for bit with my back door neighbor and it was fun. Plus I need some girl time, I get it with my sisters, but usually with kids. Wish I was more out going, and felt comfortable just calling up some of the ladies in my ward and seeing if they wanted to hang out. Just a thought.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

SO much to do and SO little time

I am starting to feel it more and more these days. I have way more to do then I have time/energy to get it done. I have to choose what needs to be done most and do that, but end up always feeling behind and stressed. I know it will only get harder these next few weeks and months, and then more so after the baby comes. (who still doesn't have a name by the way, so if you have any boy names, let me hear them.) I can't really see a solution to my problem. I just don't see what I can cut out, especially since I am behind on everything as it is, cutting anything out would only make me feel like I wasn't getting it done at all and still behind on everything else. Plus I am so done being prego. I don't mean to sound complainy, but everyone needs to complain some time and this is my blog, so there you go.

Thursday, July 15, 2010


I don't usually post pictures, but this one I had to. This is Daniel and Elena in their new bunk bed. They both got new bedding also. Elena was in a toddler bed before this. She grew up so much tonight. I know she has a lot more growing to do before the baby comes, but tonight seeing her brush her teeth and go potty by herself, then climb into bed and listen while I read, she just seemed so big. I love my kids so much. They spend most of the day driving me insane, fighting with each other, whining at me, crying (mostly Elena), but still at the end of day, as I tuck them into bed, I can't help but see how lucky I am to have these two.

You can't see the rest of the room, but it isn't quite done yet anyway. I will try to post some pictures of the rest of it and of it when it gets done because it is so cute. I think I might like it more then them :-)

Sunday, July 11, 2010


Can't seem to balance my time. I can say no to people, but when it comes to events, I always want to go. Even if it isn't anything big, if someone says 'hey, you should come!' or 'oh by the way we're....' or 'we should hang out'. I always want to, even if I have no time. Which means I do and then I don't get other things done. Going to work on that. Now for some cereal :-)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Having three kids!

Here is my soap box:

I keep telling people who ask, 'so how many kids are you going to have?' or 'Is this going to be the last?' anything like that. So I tell them I think this will be the last, or I think three, but we will see what happens. Then they always say... 'You are ONLY going to have three?' um only? ONLY? When it comes to M&Ms three is only, when it comes to kids three is not only. Enough people have said stuff that it makes me feel like they think I am less of a mother then someone who can wants to or who has four or five. Maybe I am just smarter, I know when I reach my limit and weather or not I am baby hungry I can make the best choice for my kids, my marriage and me. Maybe everyone is just different, some are moms of two, some five, and some are step moms, some are neighborhood moms, we all are different. I don't think I could be a step mom, but people do it, I also don't think I could handle (well) more then three kids. If you can then good for you, but that doesn't have anything to do with me. Also I am not guarantying that I am not going to have more then three, I am just saying that is what I am planning on, maybe there are more up there for me and I will know that later, maybe not, but if you are going to ask me how many kids I am planning to have I am going to say three, and I would appreciate it if you did not respond with ONLY three.

Okay there I am off my soap box, thank you all for listening. :-)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Feeling unequal to the task of parenting.

Some days are just harder then others, today was one. Daniel woke up in a bad mood and it never really went away. They are both asleep now, they look peaceful and calm. I know in order to teach them, and make things easier for them and me later in life, I have to stand up to those tantrums, but it doesn't make it any easier. I love my kids, and I know they love me. I also know I am doing the best I can for them, and in the end that is all I can do.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Can't ever forget

So last night I was going to put Elena to sleep. She hadn't had a nap all day and was tired. So I lay her in her bed and bend over her bed to give her a hug, she grabs my head and pulls it to her chest. Then she sings me a song, "Elena child of God" over and over again, and pets my head. After only a min the singing stops, then the petting stops. I slowly try to lift my head, thinking she can't already be asleep. Without opening her eyes she pulls my head back down. This went on for a few more minutes, me trying to get up and her hugging my head. She was asleep, but didn't want to let go. In that moment I missed my little girl, even though she hasn't grown up yet. I love her so much and in those tender moments I can feel the joy of being a parent, and as crazy as it sounds all the screaming and tantrums are forgotten, and the moments of frustration just melt away.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

pregnancy talk

So I think I might be entering the dangerous stage of my pregnancy. Well, by dangerous I mean the stage were I gain way more weight then I need to. Today everything I put in my mouth tasted good and I wanted more, of everything. The only reason I say I am just entering it is because when I ate a bunch of something that yuck feeling came. That means I am not there yet. With Daniel I gained 47 pounds and with Elena around that, a little less I think. But with Daniel I ate whatever and didn't exercise at all. With Elena I ate better, but still didn't exercise. This pregnancy so far I haven't been too picky about what I eat, since I have been feeling way more nauseous then with the other two. but I have been careful not to eat too many sweets. And so far I have been exercising at least once a week. I guess I now need to be more careful about what I eat, and a another day of exercise each week. Don't get me wrong I know I am going to gain at least 35 pounds and I am ready for that, and know it is healthy for the baby. But I just don't want to gain more then I need to. So that is it for today.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Potty Training

So it started today. It was 0 for 4. She peed her pants twice, then twice she peed just a little we went to the bathroom and she sat there forever and never peed. Tomorrow I am going to wake up early so I can get her on in the morning, she is dry all night, so she has a lot to get out in the morning. She can hold it, I can see since she only peeded a little then held it for hours. She is dry while sleeping. She can pull up and down her pants and underwear. She will sit on the potty for a long time. She even told me when she peed a little bit in her underwear. Long story short, she is ready. I am not, potty training while prego, not my favorite, but that was a choice I made when I got pregnant so here we go. I will update here since not everyone on FB really wants to hear all about it, and well, if you don't want to read about it here, then you just don't have to. :-)

Monday, May 10, 2010

Life is going WAY too fast!

I can't keep up with everything/anything. I am always just catching up, getting everything done a week or so after it should be. I don't really like living this way. I am normally on top of things, at least most of the way, but this is just not working.

Monday, May 3, 2010


So I have been getting some stuff done, not a ton. But I have been working on my Jewelry. I got the blog up and the bottons are working. I had my first out of state order. Now just to get some more beads from Peru..... humm..... If I wasn't prego I would go right now. Guess we will have to work on that. But if you haven't already check out my blog also I am starting to have events so check us out of FB to come see them in person! :-)

Saturday, April 17, 2010


I don't feel like I can complain of FB, seeing as how I have lots of friends some who can't get pregnant and want to, and some who just aren't in that stage of their life. So I will here and if you don't want to read it then don't. :-)

I am just not okay with the hormones pregnancy is giveing me. To go from happy to sad so fast, and not just crying at a tv add or something. But I can go to feeling in harmony with my life to feeling overwhelmed very fast and for little or no reason. I don't generally feel bad and I don't like to. And that is that.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

In over my head

I have really been feeling it lately. I am in way over my head in life. The big problem is I can't take out any of the things that put me here. Just going to cut out the little things I can and work my way through it. Here we go.....

Monday, March 22, 2010


For me it is hard to accept, but usually ends up being a good thing.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Really wanting some Ice cream, don't have any, my kids are sleeping and my husband isn't home, ummm..... anyone want to bring me some?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


once you know something, you can't unknow it. Once you have said something you can't unsay it. That is why we need to be careful with our own information and extra careful with the information other people have trusted us with.

Monday, March 8, 2010

The only person you can change is yourself.

And also the only person who can change you is you. Are we more worried about what others are doing or saying, or worried about helping them, or changing them, then we are about ourselves? The first part focuses on the fact that you can't change other people, so don't waste your energy trying. The second part focuses on the fact that if you are going to change it is going to be by your own efforts.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sometimes it is better to just say nothing at all.

I am not very good at that. Once we have said something we can't take it back. So sometimes I should just not say anything but I always have to have somoething to say. So for now I am working on saying les, only what needs to be said.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

It's the climb......

Sometimes it is hard to remember that life is all about the journey. We we are thinking we have soo much to do or things are so hard we should try to remember that is the point. The view from the top of the mountain is beautiful, I am sure, but much more so to the person who had to work to get there and gets to stand on the top of that mountain and take it all in, then to the person who only gets to see the picture that other person took. The same is true with life. Sometimes we spend so much time thinking about the end result of things we forget that we can't get that end result unless we do the work now. I could use so many examples, but the biggest one for me is looking ahead to when my kids are grown and able to do wonderful things and make choices and live life and I get to watch. I often think of how nice it will be when I don't have to do EVERYTHING for them. But if I don't take the time to raise them now, it wont be nice when they are older. They will still grow, but I wont have taught them the things I wanted to. There are a lot of phrases that go with this..... stop and smell the roses, life is a journey, and lots more, but I like the words to the song It's the climb. "It ain't about how fast I get there, it ain't about what's waiting on the other side, it's the climb."

Tuesday, February 9, 2010


I like change, I think. Well, when it is good change I do. Some people don't like change no matter what kind of change it is, I am not one of those people. Everyone changes over time, but have you ever noticed it while it was happening. I can see myself changing. I started to notice after we got back from Peru. I am sure some of it has to do with my trip, I think most of it does. I met people who are very different from myself and the people I am most often in contact with. I guess my eyes were opened to the idea that there are other ways to live the how I do it. The amazing part is without noticing I was doing it, I took the characteristics I liked that I saw in the people there and used them to change the way I act. I can see that I have changed and am changing and I like it. From what I can see so far it is good change. It was just cool to see that I did it without realizing what I was doing.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


What is it called when you love someone so much you can't stand it and they make you frustrated almost to the point of losing control all in one day?

Monday, February 1, 2010

What other people think.

Here is what I am working on right now, not caring what other people think. In my head I am one of those people who doesn't care, and I used to be one of those people, but I am starting to see that I am not anymore. Slowly over the years I have changed, everyone does, some have been good changes and some, not so good. But I lay in bed the other day and realized I a not the person I think I am. I used to be the person I think I am, and I still want to be that person. It is like over the years I slowly stopped being that person, but kept thinking I was, until all at once I realized I wasn't anymore, I didn't notice the change happening. I am not going to go around acting like a jerk and saying, well I don't care what you think. But I do need to make sure I don't base my thoughts and actions only on what others think. I need to care more about what I think then what others think. And more about what God thinks. I always, every time I speak, am thinking is this going to offend them, are they going to think..... whatever of me. But by doing that I am not really being myself. The only thing I got out the the yoga class I did the other day was this: right at the end of the class, we are breathing and relaxing, and the teacher says, take a minute to honor yourself. Those two words have stuck with me, honor yourself.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I can tell it is January.

I feeling so blah. I can't see the blue in the sky, or the sun. January just finally caught up to me since I was gone for the beginning of it and crazy busy the few weeks after I got back. Luckily for me, February always helps me get through the winter months. My b-day is the first week, and should be great as long as my husband puts a little effort into making me feel special that day. (help from a sister, like ideas of what he could do/ get me, is not out of the question) The next week in Valentines day, an excuse for me and my hubby to spend quality time together, something I always enjoy. And the we are more then half way done with Feb. Hopefully March isn't too over cast, like Jan has been, and me and the kids can get out and feel the sun on our faces. Either way...... the best is yet to be. :-)

Friday, January 22, 2010

mostly for myself

If you are complaining about the pile of dirty clothes you have to wash and fold, be grateful you have clothes to wash., some people don't. If you are tired of cleaning your house only for it to get messed up again, be happy you have a house to clean, some people don't. If your kids are driving you crazy and you feel like you aren't equal to the task of raising them, be grateful you have kids to raise, some people don't. If you are arguing with your husband because he just can't do things right, be grateful you have a husband to argue with, some people don't. And last but definitely not least, just when you start to complain that your life is too hard, be grateful that you have a life to complain about, because some people don't.

Monday, January 18, 2010


I had fun playing with Elena today, Daniel was with his grandma, so we had some girl time. She is getting big, but still little at the same time. I also discovered I really enjoy making jewelry. I am sure I can sell it for enough to have it pay for it's self. I got a lot of supplies in Peru and think I will keep getting more and see how it goes. Some days are hard, and some days everything falls into place, random I know but true. I have to get off the computer and try to unwind for bed.

Sunday, January 10, 2010


Okay, I wont be posting after this for a while because right now life is too busy and so I have to take care of the more important things. But I thought I would post about Peru. It was amazing, we were there for three weeks. It was hard for me to get used to the food, but I did eat some very yummy stuff. I saw some beautiful beaches. We went to Truillo, 9 hour bus ride over night, and there we saw some amazing ruins. They were huge and had so much detail. Some were from as early as 400 ad, I think. Can't describe the feeling I felt walking through them, but it was amazing. I got sick on New Years Eve and wasn't able to go to the party, which was a bummer because I wanted to dance. But I got better before we had to go, which was good. The people there amaze me, both in good ways and not so good. But it is amazing that they have so little but still they give you whatever they can. I also loved how openly they talk about God and their feelings toward Him. In general I loved it and sometimes I already miss it. Christopher has lots of family there and it was cool to meet all of them and get to know the ones I knew better. I look forward to be able to go again sometime.